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Seducing hearts, one story at a time, Author - Crystal R. Martin


So it’s early 2018 and I hear you yelling. “Where the hell have you been?” It’s been almost seven months right? I get it… So as an explanation here goes. In June the last time I posted my first grandchild was a week out from being born. She is amazing! Meet Paisley.


 
    


Outside of that at the end of May I ended up with another message to deliver. I also worked all summer with no weekends off. Because I try to post new blogs on Mondays, this left me little to no energy and lots of upset. As well as lots of weird things happening, the spiritual lessons continued. 

In September the job ended, and new challenges arose. October through December was a dark area. I didn’t tell a lot of people the job ended, because there is a lot of emotional baggage that I am working on releasing. I was guilty and ashamed, and I've had to let that go. I had to understand that it was monkey brain trying to make me feel horrible. 

 I was also called to stand up for my truth and beliefs. I lost people I thought were close to me. I’m not detailing the mess, but suffice it to say, I will share what I learned, and my truth.

 “I get to choose the energy I surround myself with, and if that includes cutting negative people off on social media then so be it.” I believe that as pagans we should strive to embody that which we claim to believe. For me this means coming at things from a place of love. I have no room in my life for name-calling, belittling people, hatred, bashing others, because these behaviors do nothing but create drama. They do not ever get a message across or solve problems.

There were also lessons on a new way of being. It ties in to coming from a place of  love. I am still moving forward on this front, and it’s revolutionizing my journey. In late December it broke me open all over again.

On the plus side, I am making videos again. It’s leading me to a place of more freedom, more to come about this soon. I will post the link to my channel here so you can check out the newest ones and subscribe if you’d like to see more.


The year 2017 was all about focus. It became my word. For me focus was the lesson of which priorities were truly important, and why I wasn’t giving them the attention they deserved. My writing was being ignored for lesser things. I like to say I was out of focus. In an upcoming post, I want to explore some of the deeper lessons. As my sister said, don’t waste time with writing that does not have impact. I hope you’ll check it out.




       Good afternoon, here we are in June. April and May just flew by with lessons aplenty. What a wild beautiful world? Am I right? Where to begin, well by this time next week, I will officially be a grandma. My oldest is having my first grandchild. Her name is Paisley and we all wait with bated breath to meet her.

       The puzzle the universe sent me, this spring, has finally been resolved and I’m better for the lessons. It all comes down to doing the work. I’ve faced a few things and grown and learned more. The universe keeps sending me the same message over and over. Do The Work, Dig deeper. I hear it online, I find it in print. Well what can you do but listen right?

       Crazy events cummulated in some of the strangest events which led to my solution. I am more normal and yet not nearly so. Yes I am kind of speaking in riddles. I am still writing, but I have been so busy with these lessons that it’s been much more journaling than fiction.

       The upside to all this is I keep moving forward. Strange wonderful things approach and I can’t even begin to tell you how this excites me. As a minor example, I had a crow at work on Saturday land on a cart return and talk with me for a good ten minutes. He even cleared his throat. That actually means something important, but I haven’t been able to find where or what I read about it. Basically he was letting me know I am on the right track. Birds you know?  Trees too you know. Okay enough with the updating for now. I am working on a little piece of fiction even as I write this. Sorry for the long silence. I will be back again shortly with more crazy goodness.



       I’ve been quiet for a few weeks. Divine timing plays a part in all the weird events in my life. I have been trying to sell my car for months going back to October.  It just would not sell for love or money. It even played dead while Mercury was in retrograde. Well finally with divine timing it went on the next leg of its journey. While I appreciated it greatly and I was grateful to have a car, German engineering is not all it’s cracked up to be.

       So for a week and a half I was without a car. I walked to work again in the dark, but I knew this time. I knew the right car was making its way to me. So last week I found the car I had been imagining. This kind of thing illustrates divine timing, and I’m writing about it for a reason.

       I have a huge to me puzzle I’m trying to solve. Bits and pieces come to me as they will. But here’s the thing, I have to do the work to get each piece. Inside work, is some of the hardest. Living from a place of gratitude, not taking things personally, learning and relearning the same lessons, are just a few challenges.

       But, and this is the reason I’m writing this, seeing the results of each step are amazing. It’s like a constant ever shifting perspective of Oh…A new deeper understanding if you will. The serendipity and the interconnectedness of random events still catch me off guard. So that is why I have been quiet for a bit. Crazy things are afoot… Oh yeah before I sign off - HAPPY SPRING!



       I want to take a minute and talk about the world we live in. It’s bizarre enough that it has a Twilight Zone Episode feeling. I keep hearing the theme in my head with each new horror. But that being said I refuse to focus on it. My reason is this, what we give attention to in our world is what we see more of. Lately my experiences prove this theory, so I’m going with the flow. Here is my plan, you can embrace it or ignore it, but this is my call.

       I choose to focus for the most part, on the wonderful, the beautiful, the kind, the AMAZING. *Epic Mic Drop* I’ll be back next week with something hopefully more profound.



       Today is the first Monday of February, one in which I am going to get real. What is ego? It’s the cruelest part of your personality. Ego tends to try to hurt you when you check it at the door.

       My battle is fierce because of my sensitivity and my gifts.  I feel as if I never do enough and that I let those close to me down. I feel shame for the things that I can’t do as well as others.  What I can do well never balances out the things I struggle with. Why is there shame in being overwhelmed? I feel awkward and anxious most of the time.  Everyone can see my biggest flaw and finds me lacking. I lay awake at night and worry about being alone in the world and UN-needed. This just touches some of my daily struggle.

       I realize not all of these things are true, but that’s where ego tries to get a solid hit in. Hit where it hurts right? Ego can be really conniving and convincing, as well as loud.

      It isn’t all bad, but it isn’t rainbows and sunshine either. It’s what makes me human. My spirituality is my saving grace. Truly it’s as simple as that. But here’s the important part by sharing, by talking about it, writing about it, I raise awareness of something that draws us together. We all suffer.

Monday, January 8, 2018

Where Did You Go...And Other Honest Updates


So it’s early 2018 and I hear you yelling. “Where the hell have you been?” It’s been almost seven months right? I get it… So as an explanation here goes. In June the last time I posted my first grandchild was a week out from being born. She is amazing! Meet Paisley.

 
    


Outside of that at the end of May I ended up with another message to deliver. I also worked all summer with no weekends off. Because I try to post new blogs on Mondays, this left me little to no energy and lots of upset. As well as lots of weird things happening, the spiritual lessons continued. 

In September the job ended, and new challenges arose. October through December was a dark area. I didn’t tell a lot of people the job ended, because there is a lot of emotional baggage that I am working on releasing. I was guilty and ashamed, and I've had to let that go. I had to understand that it was monkey brain trying to make me feel horrible. 

 I was also called to stand up for my truth and beliefs. I lost people I thought were close to me. I’m not detailing the mess, but suffice it to say, I will share what I learned, and my truth.

 “I get to choose the energy I surround myself with, and if that includes cutting negative people off on social media then so be it.” I believe that as pagans we should strive to embody that which we claim to believe. For me this means coming at things from a place of love. I have no room in my life for name-calling, belittling people, hatred, bashing others, because these behaviors do nothing but create drama. They do not ever get a message across or solve problems.

There were also lessons on a new way of being. It ties in to coming from a place of  love. I am still moving forward on this front, and it’s revolutionizing my journey. In late December it broke me open all over again.

On the plus side, I am making videos again. It’s leading me to a place of more freedom, more to come about this soon. I will post the link to my channel here so you can check out the newest ones and subscribe if you’d like to see more.


The year 2017 was all about focus. It became my word. For me focus was the lesson of which priorities were truly important, and why I wasn’t giving them the attention they deserved. My writing was being ignored for lesser things. I like to say I was out of focus. In an upcoming post, I want to explore some of the deeper lessons. As my sister said, don’t waste time with writing that does not have impact. I hope you’ll check it out.


Monday, June 5, 2017

Paisley, Crows, and other Craziness - Oh My!



       Good afternoon, here we are in June. April and May just flew by with lessons aplenty. What a wild beautiful world? Am I right? Where to begin, well by this time next week, I will officially be a grandma. My oldest is having my first grandchild. Her name is Paisley and we all wait with bated breath to meet her.

       The puzzle the universe sent me, this spring, has finally been resolved and I’m better for the lessons. It all comes down to doing the work. I’ve faced a few things and grown and learned more. The universe keeps sending me the same message over and over. Do The Work, Dig deeper. I hear it online, I find it in print. Well what can you do but listen right?

       Crazy events cummulated in some of the strangest events which led to my solution. I am more normal and yet not nearly so. Yes I am kind of speaking in riddles. I am still writing, but I have been so busy with these lessons that it’s been much more journaling than fiction.

       The upside to all this is I keep moving forward. Strange wonderful things approach and I can’t even begin to tell you how this excites me. As a minor example, I had a crow at work on Saturday land on a cart return and talk with me for a good ten minutes. He even cleared his throat. That actually means something important, but I haven’t been able to find where or what I read about it. Basically he was letting me know I am on the right track. Birds you know?  Trees too you know. Okay enough with the updating for now. I am working on a little piece of fiction even as I write this. Sorry for the long silence. I will be back again shortly with more crazy goodness.

Wednesday, March 22, 2017

Divine Timing - It's a Thing



       I’ve been quiet for a few weeks. Divine timing plays a part in all the weird events in my life. I have been trying to sell my car for months going back to October.  It just would not sell for love or money. It even played dead while Mercury was in retrograde. Well finally with divine timing it went on the next leg of its journey. While I appreciated it greatly and I was grateful to have a car, German engineering is not all it’s cracked up to be.

       So for a week and a half I was without a car. I walked to work again in the dark, but I knew this time. I knew the right car was making its way to me. So last week I found the car I had been imagining. This kind of thing illustrates divine timing, and I’m writing about it for a reason.

       I have a huge to me puzzle I’m trying to solve. Bits and pieces come to me as they will. But here’s the thing, I have to do the work to get each piece. Inside work, is some of the hardest. Living from a place of gratitude, not taking things personally, learning and relearning the same lessons, are just a few challenges.

       But, and this is the reason I’m writing this, seeing the results of each step are amazing. It’s like a constant ever shifting perspective of Oh…A new deeper understanding if you will. The serendipity and the interconnectedness of random events still catch me off guard. So that is why I have been quiet for a bit. Crazy things are afoot… Oh yeah before I sign off - HAPPY SPRING!

Monday, February 27, 2017

A Journey Into A Wonderous Land



       I want to take a minute and talk about the world we live in. It’s bizarre enough that it has a Twilight Zone Episode feeling. I keep hearing the theme in my head with each new horror. But that being said I refuse to focus on it. My reason is this, what we give attention to in our world is what we see more of. Lately my experiences prove this theory, so I’m going with the flow. Here is my plan, you can embrace it or ignore it, but this is my call.

       I choose to focus for the most part, on the wonderful, the beautiful, the kind, the AMAZING. *Epic Mic Drop* I’ll be back next week with something hopefully more profound.

Monday, February 6, 2017

Evil Ego & The Art of Getting Real



       Today is the first Monday of February, one in which I am going to get real. What is ego? It’s the cruelest part of your personality. Ego tends to try to hurt you when you check it at the door.

       My battle is fierce because of my sensitivity and my gifts.  I feel as if I never do enough and that I let those close to me down. I feel shame for the things that I can’t do as well as others.  What I can do well never balances out the things I struggle with. Why is there shame in being overwhelmed? I feel awkward and anxious most of the time.  Everyone can see my biggest flaw and finds me lacking. I lay awake at night and worry about being alone in the world and UN-needed. This just touches some of my daily struggle.

       I realize not all of these things are true, but that’s where ego tries to get a solid hit in. Hit where it hurts right? Ego can be really conniving and convincing, as well as loud.

      It isn’t all bad, but it isn’t rainbows and sunshine either. It’s what makes me human. My spirituality is my saving grace. Truly it’s as simple as that. But here’s the important part by sharing, by talking about it, writing about it, I raise awareness of something that draws us together. We all suffer.

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