I have to take a moment and share my thoughts/experiences. So here I am as a parent, here I am as a daughter, here I am as a person, and all that is good. Now here I am as an employee...not really. With no recent verifiable employment history this leaves me feeling inadequate at best and useless at worst.
All those other parts of me are competent, secure in the knowledge that I am capable. This other part of me, the part that provides financial security is a total puddle of gelatinous waste. No, seriously, I have been trying for five months now to find employment and provide at least the basics for myself and my kids. It isn't happening. I have sold myself until I am blue in the face.
People aren't willing to take a risk on a person that has no history of being a good employee. Keep in mind that being a Domestic Engineer--creative title for homemaker--for sixteen years does not count. ~(*o*)~
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Crystal R. Martin
Thursday, July 30, 2009
Pieces of me....
I have to take a moment and share my thoughts/experiences. So here I am as a parent, here I am as a daughter, here I am as a person, and all that is good. Now here I am as an employee...not really. With no recent verifiable employment history this leaves me feeling inadequate at best and useless at worst.
All those other parts of me are competent, secure in the knowledge that I am capable. This other part of me, the part that provides financial security is a total puddle of gelatinous waste. No, seriously, I have been trying for five months now to find employment and provide at least the basics for myself and my kids. It isn't happening. I have sold myself until I am blue in the face.
People aren't willing to take a risk on a person that has no history of being a good employee. Keep in mind that being a Domestic Engineer--creative title for homemaker--for sixteen years does not count. ~(*o*)~
All those other parts of me are competent, secure in the knowledge that I am capable. This other part of me, the part that provides financial security is a total puddle of gelatinous waste. No, seriously, I have been trying for five months now to find employment and provide at least the basics for myself and my kids. It isn't happening. I have sold myself until I am blue in the face.
People aren't willing to take a risk on a person that has no history of being a good employee. Keep in mind that being a Domestic Engineer--creative title for homemaker--for sixteen years does not count. ~(*o*)~
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3 comments:
- Diana said...
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Hey...it takes years to get self sufficient....unfortunately. It took time to get where you were and will take time to get out of it. Be good to yourself and know you are going to get there.
- July 31, 2009 at 12:54 AM
- Morgaine said...
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School might be a better option. I know that there are programs with LCC that specifically deal with domestic engineers re-entering the workforce. You'll make it! It won't be easy, but you're going to be alright.
Blessed be.
Morgaine - July 31, 2009 at 11:07 AM
- Unknown said...
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Like Morgaine said, school may be the best option right now. Not many jobs available right now. Hang in there!
- July 31, 2009 at 7:15 PM
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3 comments:
Hey...it takes years to get self sufficient....unfortunately. It took time to get where you were and will take time to get out of it. Be good to yourself and know you are going to get there.
School might be a better option. I know that there are programs with LCC that specifically deal with domestic engineers re-entering the workforce. You'll make it! It won't be easy, but you're going to be alright.
Blessed be.
Morgaine
Like Morgaine said, school may be the best option right now. Not many jobs available right now. Hang in there!
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