Today is the first Monday of February, one in which I am going to get real. What is ego? It’s the cruelest part of your personality. Ego tends to try to hurt you when you check it at the door.
My battle is fierce because of my sensitivity and my gifts. I feel as if I never do enough and that I let those close to me down. I feel shame for the things that I can’t do as well as others. What I can do well never balances out the things I struggle with. Why is there shame in being overwhelmed? I feel awkward and anxious most of the time. Everyone can see my biggest flaw and finds me lacking. I lay awake at night and worry about being alone in the world and UN-needed. This just touches some of my daily struggle.
I realize not all of these things are true, but that’s where ego tries to get a solid hit in. Hit where it hurts right? Ego can be really conniving and convincing, as well as loud.
It isn’t all bad, but it isn’t rainbows and sunshine either. It’s what makes me human. My spirituality is my saving grace. Truly it’s as simple as that. But here’s the important part by sharing, by talking about it, writing about it, I raise awareness of something that draws us together. We all suffer.