The Write Life

            Hi All,

                               

Thanksgiving just came and went, and a good time was had by all. My s.o. and I were apart for the holiday. He was house-sitting for friends, while we both worked long hours.This holiday season is extra tough. People are suffering right now with bigotry, cruelty, hate, and misogyny. It breaks my heart almost daily. I’ve leaned into Christmas music to try to heal my heart. I know it doesn’t help others, but if I can find joy, that is a form of resistance. Resistance leads to hope. I am already trying to decorate and my big plan for tomorrow is to get my tree up. My s.o. does not know this. Shh…it’s a surprise. Don’t tell him, okay? He’s not into Christmas, but I really need it this year. Capitalism’s sell, sell, sell is very hard on my soul. I work in retail, and our store was first in our district, and fifth in all of our stores everywhere with Black Friday Sales. Enough about that. I am grateful to have a job. Mercury has gone direct! Thanks be to the old gods. Can you hear the relief? It wasn’t bad, just lots of lessons. I was more curious this round. Anyway, this was just a quick update for the start of the holidays. 

 

        Love to you all.

 

Hi All,

 

                Is Mercury Retrograde being kind to you? This is a surprise to me as well. This cycle has been rather weird. I am much more self-aware this round. I am experiencing two things. One, the types of things that trigger me, and two not falling into the trap of spiraling, rather, I am just letting those feelings/emotions go.

 

                In my last update I forgot to mention that I finally succeeded in making sour dough successfully. It was very tasty. I also made apple butter and blackberry freezer jam this year, for the first time. Yummy doesn’t do it justice. My plate was filled by all things made by these two hands. Joy abounds. (Yes, it still feels selfish but also it feels revolutionary. They want us upset and angry, so joy is resistance!)

 

                In other news I was recently able to travel to see family. We relaxed and just enjoyed the company. It soothed my soul in the best way. My Sagittarius moon loves to travel. Thanksgiving is just over a week away. Where has this year gone?

 

                In writing news, I’ve had a brilliant flash. I haven’t been writing because of the block. I realized I should write a Christmas story, just to break through the block. A fan-fiction rom-com to return to my roots. Wish me luck. I am excited to say the least.

 

                I have a lot on my plate, but with some good planning, I should be able to read, write, and work.  Let’s hope… As always, I love you all. Keep reading, writing or whatever you do passionately.

 

Hi Darlings,

               

                I want to take a moment and open up. Vulnerability can be very intense. Last night at work, something happened that I want to talk about. But first some backstory, for context. I lost my mom almost fourteen years ago, now. At that time, I was fresh from an almost seventeen-year marriage, and a single-parent. My mother suffered from C.O.P.D.. She didn’t have the oxygen she once did to do things. I would drive her around, and she would use one of those store cruisers. Until she couldn’t anymore then I would do her shopping and running for her. We had so much fun.

 

                Back to the present. I was working last night when a lady and her mother passed me. I asked if I could help them find anything, and the vibe was just the same as my mom and I. It landed so hard, I actually said, “Can I tell you something before you go?” She said, “Sure.”

 

 Now here’s the thing, let me be so real right now, this was way outside of my comfort zone. I don’t usually say the thing out loud, but something had come over me. I said, “Enjoy every moment!” She said, “Can I give you a hug?” I agreed, and she hugged me. I continued, “I lost my mom several years ago now, and I would sell my soul to go back and have one more day to do this.” I actually started tearing up. She said, “Can I give you another hug?” I said, “Yes.” She hugged me again, and began to explain that she had just moved in with both her parents to care for them. I then told them to have a great evening, and they went on their way.

 

The whole point of this story, is to just to share how much this interaction warmed my heart. I had to step off the floor and go to the stockroom for a moment, to wipe tears from my eyes. It did my heart so much good. Just saying the thing.

 

I always fear saying the thing because being vulnerable can easily wound you.  Anyway, I just wanted you all to know how much it warmed my heart.  We live in some crazy times right now, and warming your heart, or finding hope however you can, is vital! I love you all.