Today is the first Monday of February, one in which I am going
to get real. What is ego? It’s the cruelest part of your personality. Ego tends
to try to hurt you when you check it at the door.
My battle is fierce because of my sensitivity and my
gifts. I feel as if I never do enough
and that I let those close to me down. I feel shame for the things that I can’t
do as well as others. What I can do well
never balances out the things I struggle with. Why is there shame in being
overwhelmed? I feel awkward and anxious most of the time. Everyone can see my biggest flaw and finds me
lacking. I lay awake at night and worry about being alone in the world and UN-needed. This just touches some of my daily struggle.
I realize not all of
these things are true, but that’s where ego tries to get a solid hit in. Hit
where it hurts right? Ego can be really conniving and convincing, as well as
loud.
It isn’t all bad, but
it isn’t rainbows and sunshine either. It’s what makes me human. My
spirituality is my saving grace. Truly it’s as simple as that. But here’s the
important part by sharing, by talking about it, writing about it, I raise
awareness of something that draws us together. We all suffer.
1 comments:
Nice writing.. Replacing negative thoughts with positive affirmations can change you into a more self loving person. Stick post-its everywhere with the positive affirmations on them. Don't let the negative creep into you. You are a sweet, kind and loving person. It's a common thing for so many of us to do this to ourselves but we have the ability to change it. :) Hugs...
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